It’s a little over seven years since I left The Rapture. A little under 3.5 years since I started recording this record. In that time I made and scrapped an album, worked with 3 different managers, signed to and broken up with a record label and been through 6 months of legal proceedings to get my record back and the day has finally come. My first solo EP is out and available digitally today. You can buy it or stream it at iTunes/Apple Music, Spotify, Amazon, Tidal, virtually any online service.
It is said apocryphally that every cell in the body changes out over the course of seven years. Scientifically this is bullshit, but let’s run with it for the sake of poetry. I’ve certainly changed and grown in completely unexpected ways over the past 7 years. I’ve been married and divorced. I’ve developed my voice. I’ve cleaned up my life, given up smoking, cut out drinking and other indulgences. I’ve sacrificed thousands of hours chasing some melodies and a dream of a different kind of sound, a different approach to making music. With the help of others I became a better singer, a better producer, a better writer. A kinder, gentler person. A more fully realized version of myself.
When I started out I was feeling broken and disengaged from my life. These songs saved me. It’s been a struggle getting here but now I feel strong and confident and able to do anything I want to. There’s been a lot of helpful voices who guided my through that, and I am eternally grateful to them. I still fuck up all the time, and I still slip into darkness on occasion, but I know that if I get back to the creative part of what I do, the essence of my being, my purpose, I’m good.
Seven years is a really long time to spend on any one dream. In order to realize this I sacrificed a lot of others. Now that this is here and out I feel a freedom of possibility. That isn’t to say that this release is an ending, to the contrary it’s just the beginning of a new phase. You work at 150% capacity every minute of the day leading up to a release, checking details, making little fixes, but once it's out, and you just have to let it be what it's going to be. As a person who lives through their creativity, not being able to share that with the world felt like death. Now I’m alive again, alive to the world and all it’s possibilities. You want to know who I am? Listen to this. What happens from here? Who knows. But I’ve made my opening statement and I’m ready for whatever response the world wants to give me.